Tuesday, December 1, 2009

second day of class!
I never thought that I would find learning a subject for four hours each day to be fun!

Woke up in the morning feeling so sleepy and not wanting to wake up,
but we arrived in the classroom half an hour earlier, which surprised the seong saeng-nim..

class was so fun!
I can't even begin to describe it.
I guess because there was only the four of us (as linda-shii stated)
but today's words were harder than yesterday..
we still had a quiz, and tomorrow we would find out the result!
cant wait to get the result (for the first time excited about a result!)

I took some really good pictures in class, of the view outside and also of us, pretending hard as if we were studying.
Will upload as soon as I want to!!

Don't know where we would go tonight. Will keep updated!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

words unspoken..

thousands of words left unspoken...
buried deep inside
unable to comprehend
unable to be expressed
how i wish i knew what was the right thing to do
how i wish that i didnt feel this way
i hate this feeling
excited about the other feeling
scared about this one
worried about the other one
being forced on this one ( get a puppet to control!)

sometimes its so easy to forget everything
just turn on and watch them, its like a whole different world
i wanna go there, can i?
but having experienced it there, i feel i cant survive
cant mix, cant talk, please get a life!
do u want to be like this ur whole life?
intimidated, low self esteem, unsure, scared
ur missing out!

then again, when u consider all aspects of life..
all these seem insignificant
life is short, think about the time when they lower ur body into the grave
think about when all that has left you,
what do u have to bring to the other side?
is it enough?
only there it is important for u to survive..
so please stop being sooo uh...
u know u can do it...
all thats done is planned.
just go through with it..
do the best u can
accept it
make a choice
because u dont know when its ur time..

...such a long post, relieved...

Friday, November 13, 2009

7-13th nov in ho chi minh city vietnam

A lot of troubles we went through
At first we didn't want to go...
Exams next semester, late for it 3weeks because of me not because of you.
Once there, was not so bad
the hotel was okay,
cultural shock at first with all the bikes,
somehow amidst all the chaos ness on the road,
it was safe, kind of...
We had few practices before the competition,
nonetheless we tried our best
after all its not our opponent we're going against, its ourselves (credit to carol-shii)...
we manage to achieve our goal, well some of them..
beat NUS, got third...
although the trip was tainted a few..
with word which were spoken without much thinking
acts that were done without much thought..
but there were of course lots of happy times..
three stooges and only 1..
made lots of friends from all over asia..
thinking only of happy times...
pictures are stuck on my mind
will put it up here as soon as i can~ ^_^

Friday, October 30, 2009

complications compilations

mixture of both...
feeling dread and sorrow and scared...
i always pray for the best...
i know its hard...
but i'll try harder...
i love with all my heart...
i regret...
i try and send as much as i can...
always praying for the best..

Sunday, October 11, 2009


그건 내 잘못이 아니 란다. 만약 당신이 내 기분이 어떤지 알아 잠고있었는걸요. 내가 죄책감을 내 부모님에 대한 느낌. 내 동생을 그냥 통과시켰다. 내 가족의 곁에서가되고 싶어요. 나는 죄를 내가 한달 동안 한국에 가서 엄마를두고 갈 생각입니다. 난 난 항상 죄책감을 느끼는 거리. 그 일을 내가해야 할 일을 싫어. 너무 스트레스입니다. 내가 everyones 자사의 내 미래에 대한 좋은 말 싫어. 난 상관 없어! 그래서 만약 내가 commmitment 단정하지 말라 없어? 피할 수없는 일이되기 전에, 특정 물건에 자신을 헌신. 베트남, 한국 건 논쟁. 난 둘 다 막혔어요! 내 부모님은 내가 집에서 한달 동안 않을 거란 느낌이 실망하지 않기를 바래요. 내가 죄책감을 느끼는 그만 일어났으면 좋겠. 내가 전에했던 내가 한국에 갈 열정을 느끼지 않는다. 내가 그 이유도 죄책감이 내 친구를 향해 바랍니다. 나는이 죄책감 때문에 공부 분위기도하지 않습니다. 난 내 인생이 싫어 있지만 내 동생을 견뎌야만했던 말을 다시보고, 나는 감사하고 싶은 기분은 우리가 서로 좋은 일이 하나님 께서 사람을 당연시하지 않는 우리에게 부여하고있다 소중히 생각합니다 왜냐하면 우리 것 정말로 그것을 후회할 때가 오면 때. 너무 자기 할 무엇을 당신이 할 무엇을 안 할 사람 원해요. 보물을 모두. 사랑하는 사람 모두. 모든 당신의 마음과 당신의 가족을 사랑 해요. 그리고 어떻게 당신을 위해, 당신 가족, 그리고 종교를 최고. 가장 중요한 것은, 자신을 믿어!

Saturday, August 15, 2009


bersalahkah aku kalo aku ceria...bila aku ngn korg aku gelak ketawa..sebenarnya bila kat umah keadaan aku xcam tu...so bila ngn korg, korg menceriakan hidup aku...aku gelak pun satu cara utk aku release stress...lupe kan prob aku utk sementara...so depan org aku kne ceria, xle asyik bersedey2...macam tu...
bersalahkah aku dalam situasi macam ni skg aku ley lg pk kan vietnam n korea sdgkan family aku menghadapai masalah?selfish eh???hmmmmmm.....

thx kpd nur azlinda, aisha nasiha, wan nurfarha, norizan, arianna, ain, farah, carol tsp n rashini...
^_^ aku akn try utk bergelak ketawa n xbebankan korg ngn masalah aku...sbb sumorg ade masalah kan...

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sebenarnya sangatla malas nak buat blog lepas blog lepas jadi camtu...tp ntah kenapa dada rasa sangat sesak dengan masalah dan harus diluahkan kalau x...hmmm...harap xramai yang tau blog nih...kenapa macam banyak sangat masalah melanda?kadang-kadang nak sangat terasa jadi invisible, halimunan nak lari gi somewhere yang orang lain xtau...
moots,vietnam,korea,library,pngesahan kursus(maybe yang ini is my fault tapi bz pk masalah sampai lupa n ingat tarikh panjang lagi...T.T)....
walaupun recently menang 2nd place for moots tp berat rasa...gi vietnam...maybe la xde masalah...but then sebabkan ini ade jessup plak...dan coach tnye serius ke x nak teruskan?kalo xserius die pun bley gi universiti lain n die pon nak reconsider tawaran kerja di ukm...but then i've worked so hard for the placement in ajou university korea...mcm mn plak?That leads to another problem - duet. janji kat linda ijan pas habis moots aku tolong...tp skg hidup aku plak kelam kabut...Nak cari duet tp.....along pun sakit xtau sampai berapa lama...nak tnye kat umi ayh tp xnak plak mnyusahkan n menyesakkan pikiran diorang sal duet...masalah lagi satu dikaitkan...along sakit...sian tengok sumorg yang berkaitan. umi ayah asyik duk hospital penat...aku hmmmm kdg2 rs penat sgt tgk je dorg...klo dorg lg lah penat kot...cr yg dpt di bantu, kemas umah...tp kdg2 bengang gak yg laki2 lain dlm umah ni xreti nk tolong langsung! sabar jelah....semester ni sangatlah serabut dengan banyak masalah...
tapi kata-kata yang dapat bagi dorongan skang,

"Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya lebih dr kemampuan hamba tersebut"

Ya Allah Kau berikanlah jalan terbaik untuk hambaMu...sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui...